So I left him

SO..... I left what I thought was a mutal loving realationship. Only to find that the love was not returned and fidelity was a wondering quesiton and definition. I have to confess that this is an area in my life that I have little to no experience in. I am usually the heart breaker, the one that lets guys down gently becuase I want to see whats out there. However I have never cheated on the person I was dating. What he did was so foul that I smell the odor everytime I wake up in the morning. The thought of trusting someone with your heart is such a delicate and intimate exchange that....I thought would be taken with care. Neway! I have been reading this book The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren, great read by the way. The book is designed to help the reader in his or her realationship with God in regards to building a purposeful life. Recently I was reading a chapter that talked about " what drives your life". One of the general drives that Warren discussed was RESENTMENT, or grudges. This topic hit me hard because he discussed how what that person did constantly replays in your mind and the hurt and pain is consistent. He also disucussed how that person is not still hurting you, what they did is the PAST. As a christ follower, foregiveness is important to me. How can I expect God or anyone else to frogive me if I don'f forgive him and let it go- I can't. I cannot be a hypocrite about this thing. So I made up in my mind that I truly want to let this go and the first step for me is acknowledging that I have resentment towards this person and letting that go. Eventually I will tell him face to face that I forgive him. When that time comes perhaps I won't smell the foul smell of deceit and past hurt anymore.